Day 1: Visiting Hawthorne Farms

Today was the first of many interviews with Dave Bourne and the Westside Morning Report. I felt it went well. It was a solid 8 minutes of us discussing the goals for me and HFAC. Now that it has been said, and it is “out there” the nerves have officially set in. Yikes! What have I agreed to? Our listeners and Facebook followers are going to know every intimate detail about me. I tend to be not so accurate when it comes to numbers, the scale says 202 lbs, my head says 185; because in my opinion a 5’3” lady in her 40’s should not be over 200 lbs. So, if I say 185 lbs often enough I may start actually believing it as truth. But then I look in the mirror…….and sure enough it shows every inch of the 202. In fact, it should probably say more like 302. I am learning that self image is a contributing factor to success. What I see is probably far more negative than what others see. My self image for sure needs to “work out” as well. HFAC will work on not only the body, but the mind as well.

Since we will be taking this journey together, let me tell you a little about myself so you can have an idea of who I am. I am a 49 year woman; I have 2 daughters, 4 grandchildren and am divorced. I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful man. He is extremely supportive of my adventure, so that is helpful. A few years ago, I started to run. I did it out of stress or frustration. I would run for about 25 minutes a day, come home and have a glass of wine. But, hey at least I was running. That has since stopped; not the wine, just the running.  I have not done any regular scheduled or structured work out or exercise in what feels like forever. I know my stamina needs work. I can’t even walk the dog around the block without getting winded. I am a great cook. Here in lies my biggest problem……I like food. I like to cook. I like to feed people. Jesse says he wants me to start counting calories. Well, Jesse is going to be in for a big shock, because when I cook, I really cook. Cheese, butter, whipping cream, salt…….you know all the things that are so delicious but not super healthy. The homemade Reuben sandwich I had for dinner last night will guarantee to not be on my new menu.  So, between my lazy habits, excellent cooking and a lack of motivation, HFAC has their work cut out for them. Now, I am not relying on them 100%. I agreed to do this. I want to do this. My desire to do this is a huge step. You have to be willing to change. Willing to take instruction. Willing to make sacrifices. At the end of the day, I really want to be a better fit person. I want more energy. I want to be in better shape. I would love to wear a size 8 again. I would also like it if Jesse would wave a magic wand over my head and I wake up tomorrow morning with all of these things in place. It doesn’t happen that way. It will not happen overnight. This will be a process. I am sure I will get frustrated and I am sure I will want to quit. I am also sure that there are others out there that feel the exact same way. My head is in the game. I am committed 110% to this.

I will keep you up to date on my progress, my successes, and my frustrations and of course, my inches!